Thursday, September 30, 2004

Postings from last night and stuff....

My posts from last night are all out of order. So you may think you are reading the postings of an idiot but I am not (at least most days). I really liked my bandwagon post which was the last one I did this morning while I couldn't sleep. But it was posted in my blog like it was the 1st or 2nd thing I posted. Oh, well...

Watched the debates tonight. Really not much of a reason for me to watch because I have my mind made up on who I am voting for. But I think they are interesting.

One of my favoirte sandwiches is an Italin Steak sandwich from a restaurant that closed here it town. I found frozen country fried steaks by Tyson and tried making my own Italian Steak sandwiches tonight for dinner. They weren't bad. I used Hunt's spagehtti sauce becuase it was CHEAP!! Next time I might use a different brand but they were good. Even the picky husband liked them!!

Let's see what did I laugh at today that the kids did. I don't think I was much in a laughing mood becuase of a killer headache and cramps. I did go to the grocery store to get milk. And I will digress for a minute. I have to buy 3 kinds of milk!! For the love, 3 different kinds. My DD is on 2% and husband drinks 1% and DS cannot digest cow's milk yet so he drinks SILK (soy milk). And the cost of the Soy milk is not much different than the cost of formula! It is $3.15 for a half gallon here!!! That is $6.30 for a gallon of milk, for those of you in Rio linda. (hee hee) I am sure it is more expensive other places, but it's a cost of living thing I am sure. I am here in the midwest so it might be a bit cheaper here than on the coasts. Anyway, as we were coming home from the grocery store my daughter was making my son laugh and that is really cute. She plays peek a boo. One day she was droppoing cheerios in the middle of the two car seats and saying in a deep voice (that is her new thing, voices that are high and low) "Hey man, don't drop the cheerios" I was laughing along with my son until I looked back and saw a stack of cheerios in the middle seat. And mind you I just cleaned up a whole box full of cheerios out of both car seats and the back seat of the car! Not so funny anymore. But I do love to hear the two of them interacting. That's the great thing that is going on with the kids right now.

Wednesday, September 29, 2004

Umm, what happened...

I think I didn't publish my last post....

1) Think my weather warning thing is not working. There are about 100 warnings and it is 1:00 AM. Don't see how that could be correct.

2) Sorry for the last post with all the typos and misspellings. I rely way to heavlily on spell check and forgot to run it (could be because it is 1:00 in the morning).

3) Pet peeve - Just went to the Extreme Makeover Home Edition web page. The application for the show is online, but you have to print it out and mail it in. WHAT?? This really amazes me. For the love of Dr. Pepper (told hubby I would start refraining from using God's name in vain, not really sure this is in vain but probabl isn't a good way to use the Lord's name) why do so many still not allow online applications!!

Couple of other things

First, I think my weather warnings thing is nto working properly. THere are 100 warnings and I am sure that is not right for 1:00 AM.

Second, oops, forgot to spell check last post. Sorry for the typos and misspellings. I rely way to heavily on spell check. Probably why so many have problems spelling words these days...

Third, if you have an application online why do you have to print it out and mail it in. The stupid Home Makeover show has you print out the application and then send it. Please, jump into the 21st century and allow online entries!!

Can't sleep rambles

Well, it is approximately 12:0 AM here and I cannot sleep. So let's see what's on my mind....Went to bed at 8:30 with a splitting headache. It's subdued now. Also had awful stomach problems. Also subsided somewhat. Not sure what the deal is, probably caught a bug from one of the kids.

So I need to work on Christmas lists for the grandparents. And need to start christmas shopping so I can get it down before THanksgiving. That's my goal. Also need to get Christmas cards, but I won't do that until closer to the end of November becuase I go to Sam's and get cards with the kids' picture to show off to all the friends and relatives.

Need to finsih staining the initials for the kids' rooms. Also have shelves I need to stain for their rooms. Also have pictures that need to be framed and put up. We have lived here over a year and I still have pictures to hang up on the walls.

Also need to work on baby books and sorting out pictures. As well as date my videos taken of the kids.

Want to submit my mom's house for an extreme makeover. Have never watched the show but see the commercials. Her house could use an extreme makeover. Maybe I will check out the website after I am done with my posting.

Just had something else to ramble about but it left my head. Oh, here is something, my car is having problems. The check engine light is on and It doesn't gear down properly. when I accelerate the rpms rev really high and it does nto gear down like it is supposed to. They guy that I take the car to and trust can't check it yet because his machine that checks the computer on the cars is broke. Hope it is fixed tomorrow so I can see how much the damage will be to the bank account!! UGH!!

Thinking of joining a mommy group and/or the Preschool PTA. I need to find another stay-at-home mom to do things with. I think that would help with the enjoyment of my job. My friends from college all work and have kids. Love them, swap war stories, but it would be good to have a stay-at-home mom perspective. Just like having a friend at work to bitch about work with, would be good to have a stay-at-home mom to swap "work" stories with. Of course, that is why i write the blog too. Definitley a good way to connect with other mommies.

What the kids did today to make me laugh...We have this ball thing with stubs on it that bounces around all over the floor. Drives the dogs crazy but the kids love it. I was holding it up to my mouth and makeing an "ahh" sound to make my voice vibrate. Of course, not thinking that kids imitate everything mommy does. They try it. But they put one of the stubs in thier mouths and then make the "ahh" sound. This was over the top hiliarious. of course, hubby points out htey could lose a tooth, but i am rolling on floor laughing. It doesn't jiggle enough to take out a tooth and it was funny. Got it on tape.

DD is a singing fool. She currently likes the song "If your happy and you know it". Got her singing it on video yesterday. It's so cute becuase some of the words are sung and some are hummed. ANd in the middle she just stops and Says I need a drink picks up the sippy cup, takes a drink and then continues on with the song. If I can figure out if it is possible to put a movie clip up on the blog, I will because it is so funny. Of course, you all could be bored by it seeing as how you aren't her doting mother. But I think it is adorable.

Need to look on internet for ideas to do with the kids. I actually think I do have ideas of things to do with the kids but my youngest is just getting to the age that he can do more activies so I need to ease up on the thinking that I am not doing enough to stimulate the kids. It is my thought that kids are so regimented, and at an early age, that they need time to just be kids and play. Of course, then I get caught up in the main stream thinking and I feel like I need to do more art with the kids, or we need more music time, or we need more outside time. I do read to the kids a lot becuase they like books. And my PAT (Parents As Teachers) educator told me at our last meeting that she was happy to hear that I was reading to the kids becuase I would be surprised how many parents don't read to their kids. So I felt good about that. But I really should just feel good that I am here with my kids every day. I don't say this as an attack on mom's that work it's just something that I feel I should be proud of and not worry so much that my kids are being stimulated enough. This could morph into a ramble about stay-at-home vs. work moms but I won't let it tonight. I really don't think it should be a "versus" situation. They are just differnet situations and one is not better than the other. One is just better for me and my kids.

ANyway, I think that is all I will ramble on about for now. Still not completely tired. Think I will surf, read blogs and maybe try to get back to bed.

Peace out!! (Hee, Hee, I have always wanted to say that, but it's not something I would say out loud - except to my husband, I say all kinds of silly things to him. One of hte great things about our realationship, the silliness we share!! And a great thing about the blog I can share my silliness more!)


Here are some bandwagons I am currently on:

Blogging Mommies - Since I have a blog, thought I would join a webring...
Seattle Seahawks - Show the Chiefs how to play football!!
Mark Martin -Hope he wins the Nextel Cup Championship!!
St. Louis Cardinals - Win the World Series (or at least make it to the NLCS)
Bernie Miklasz - Great sports columnist!!
George W. Bush - Four more years!
Fox News - Keeps me up on current events
Google - Best search engine
Journal SLEEP - They have a journal for everything don't they!!

ok it's late

So you can see I have posted twice thinking I didn't post something. But had a pretty good memory, again I remind you it is approaching 1:15 in the AM. Again didn't use spell check... AGGG.. Didn't even check to see if postings looked ok. Oh, well...can't be perfect..(which should be my mantra during meditation...)

Sunday, September 26, 2004

Football in Missouri....

or should I say Misery!!!! The St. Louis Rams and the KC Chiefs are both a whopping 0-3 for the year. St. Louis is the same old story, as it has been for the last two years. They have got to be calling for someone's head there, Martz and/or Bulger. I am sure it doesn't help that the NY Giants are 2-1 with Kurt Warner as the QB!!

And what do I say abou the Chiefs??? I knew from the off season that we were not going to be that much improved because the defense did not change, except for the coordinator. Of course, you may think I am quoting all the talking heads becuase that is the popular jargon being splashed around about the Chiefs. My husband can confirm that I was not pleased that no player changes were made in the off season. And I have not been a fan of the head coaching position since Vermiel took it over. He was miserable in ST. Louis until his power was taken away and he was told to make some changes. Like get rid of some players on defense that played like S**T!! I am afraid he is too buddy, buddy with Carl Peterson to get the same changes made in KC. We will have to see what next year brings because the Chiefs season is over!

I am officially jumping on the bandwagon of the Seattle Seahawks. They are 3-0 and gave the SF 49ers their first shut out since the 70's. Go Seahawks!!

Saturday, September 25, 2004

Postings from the edge...

Well, I really do have a lot to post about since it has been a week. We will start with the in-laws. I feigned sickness. I really am not feeling all that well, so I could sneak into my room and catch up on the happenings in the world from my computer. I really have not been in touch this week. My MIL and AIL (aunt-in-law) took my daughter shopping. I really didn't want to go, so we moved her car seat to my aunt's car. One of my specialties, putting in car seats, properly. And my husband and his brother are watching college football, snooze.... It really hasn't been too bad. MIL usually says something to boil my blood a bit and so far so good....

One positive with all of the attention here for my daughter is that since Friday after her nap, she has not peed in her pull-ups!!!!!!! Woo Hoo!! I just hope we can keep up the momentum once her audience leaves. I guess mommy and daddy aren't enough of an audience to get her to keep going to the potty.

Son is in mommy mode. I think he is not feeling well. On top of all the regular cleaning I have had to do. He has kept me busy as well. Every morning I have been washing his bedding because he has had diarrhea either in the middle of the night (let me tell you how I love to change sheets at 3:00 AM and give my son a quick bath) or in the morning. Either way it has been all over his bed. Only twice did I have to wash him as well. I really hope it is just teething. I have pulled him off of fruit and juice. But he really doesn't eat anything other than fruit and meat. I can't get him to eat veggies, no matter how much butter is on them. AIL had a good idea of adding cinnamon and brown sugar to carrots to get him to eat them. Sounds like I could fix them like sweet potatoes. Hey, I could try sweet potatoes. He might eat those and I know for a fact those bind him up because he could not eat them as an infant. He seems fine other than a couple of days he has had a slight fever, again leading me to believe he is teething. He is 14 months old and only has 5 teeth. Many are on the verge of breaking through. So that's my drama with him.

Tuesday, I did my annual ornament shopping. I have an inside connection and get them half off before the season. Wednesday, cleaning while kids were at Mother's Day Out. What a way to spend mother's day out! Thursday, more cleaning, cooking and kid developing. Friday, SSDD. I left out Monday. I am not sure what I did Monday. I do know I had a conversation with a friend of mine that I have just started speaking with again after 6 years. But that is for another post.

And today all I feel like I have been doing is cooking and cleaning. I made pancakes for breakfast, lunch was sandwiches and chips on paper plates and I am making my world famous (in my head at least they are world famous) meatballs. So that made for a busy morning and early afternoon, since I had to run to the store because I forgot the tomato sauce. And I don't care what store I go to or when I go it is inevitable that I pick up something that I don't need. Today the grocery store had beautiful, big mums on sale for 4/$10. $2.50!!! Can you believe the price... So I bought a mum and tomato sauce and tomato paste. And chips because I forgot I needed those for lunch and snacks. I did have broccoli and carrots as well but the chips were a hit. So needless to say I didn't want to go shopping. I am dead on my feet and cannot wait to go to bed tonight!! I just hope the boy doesn't wake up but I have a feeling he will since his bowels are messed up.

Friday, September 24, 2004

And another thing...

I have not been able to obsessively keep track of this hurricane situation that is brewing. Oh the insanity!!! :)

Internet Withdrawl.....

Let's see. It's been almost a week and I am not sure where it went.... My mother-in-law is in town, with her sister (does that make her my aunt-in-law?) and my brother-in-law is here as well. So I have been cleaning my hiney off!! I haven't even posted anything on eBay all week. I am going through internet withdrawal!! I hope to be able to post more about my week tomorrow. Of course, that is if I get a free minute away from the in-laws. And I am not sure how sane I will be at that time, so it could be entertaining. Hee Hee!!

Sunday, September 19, 2004

Pirate Name

I found out from Extra Strength Surfing Fingers that it is Talk Like A Pirate Day. My pirate name is Bloody Ethel Vane

Every pirate lives for something different. For some, it's the open sea. For others (the masochists), it's the food. For you, it's definitely the fighting. You tend to blend into the background occaisionally, but that's okay, because it's much easier to sneak up on people and disembowel them that way. Arr!

Find your Pirate Name

Friday, September 17, 2004

Another Quote

"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent." ~~Eleanor Roosevelt

I love this quote becuase I think it can be relevant for many situations. We are so in control of how our life is lived. We have the knowledge, foresight, and abilites to change our circumstances as needed with what life hands us. We just have to belive in ourselves and do the work that is required to have a great life!

Key to weight loss

Eat a healthy diet and exercise.

Now if only I could make a million dollars on that advice.

Now mind you, I need to eat better and I have started on the exercise, I do Yoga 3 days a week. But really, it's sad that on the news, regulary, they are talking about different foods, pills, regimes, plans that will help you lose weight.

It's really simple, burn more calories than you take in to lose weight. And really the key is to be healthy. And with health comes a healthy and desired weight. It's not necessarily a simple or easy journey. But what path in life, that is rewarding and fulfilling, is easy???

Now I hope this motivates me to get my rear in gear with eating better! :) I should practice what I preach....

Thursday, September 16, 2004

My Weather Fascination

I love weather!! This whole hurricane thing has me completely fascinated. We have already had 3 hurricanes hit the US with another one on it's way and tropical depression #12 is just off the coast of Africa. I am going to have to do some research on past hurricane seasons to see how they compare to this year. I feel for the people who have to endure these storms. While I love weather, I hate tornados, and living in the Midwest, we get our share. These hurricanes once they hit land are like prolonged thunderstorms and that would suck. But I am still fascinated by weather.

In my next life I am going to be a meterologist, maybe even on TV. :)

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

The Benefactor

I am not much on these reality TV shows. I have watched the 1st and 3rd seasons of American Idol but that is about it. But I taped teh Benefactor becuase the commercials looked funny. My husband and I watched it last night and it was one of the most entertaining hours of television! Mark Cuban has created a great TV show! And I love the way he is selecting the people he is kicking people out of his house. Three people were gone in the first episode!!!!! If you have time this is a show I would recommend watching.

Baseball, uh-oh and no babies, thank god!!!

So my husband wanted to go see the Yankees while they were in town. So he took the afternoon off and I went with him to the ball game. The kids were in Mother's Day Out so I was able to go with him. I am not much of a baseball fan but it was fun to go and see the Yankees. Lord knows that baseball in KC isn't much fun to watch most of the time. It was a great day for it becuase it was overcast most of the day so it didn't get too hot, and becuase not many people go, we were able to move to seats that were not near anyone. We aren't anti-social, we just didn't want to sit next to any of the people at the ball park...

My son is saying uh-oh now. I think that is one of the cutest things they say!!

Don't they say the phone works both ways....That is why I wonder why sometimes people get their noses out of joint when it has been a few weeks and you haven't called... Sometimes, women are a pain in the ass (myself included...) :)

My daughter is saying more sentences. I can't belive how quick they grow. She and my son were taking their bath tonight and we started to put up the bath toys in the net. My son was helping by handing me the toys. My daughter said "THank you, Jason, for helping me pick up toys." AHHHHH!!!!!!!!! She is so big..... And my son is 14 months old now, the age my daughter was when I had him. Tonight I thank god (and the doctor who fixed my husband) that I am not giving birth this month!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, September 13, 2004

The weekend

So we had the garage sale. I was exhausted most of the weekend and it sucked! There was another event going on in town that I forgot about so I think that is why it bombed. We may try to have it again in a couple of weeks. JOY!

I did clean out car seats this weekend. We can no longer feed a small country with cheerios. I also found a few magnetic letters and numbers. THey are everywhere except the refrigerator!

Sunday was football!! I took a nap as is my normal ritual on football sunday when the kids are napping. My Chiefs lost on Sunday night so I wasn't thrilled about that.

Added some new items to ebay so I can try to make more money. Not hard work just time consuming.

I love weather so I have been tracking the hurricane. Hope it veers away from Florida. Also hope it looses strengths. It's huge right now!!

Need to do laundry, so I must close now.

Thursday, September 09, 2004

Friends in Florida

"When life is too easy for us, we must beware or we may not be ready to meet the blows which sooner or later come to everyone, rich or poor." ~Eleanor Roosevelt

I can' t imagine what it is like to have two hurricanes in 3 weeks, let alone another one headed your way. May god be with you!!

Garage Sales...Why do I bother

I always say I am never going to do another garage sale. but mom has me roped into yet another one. I have been working the past two days to get it together. After Saturday, NO MORE!!! I am sooooooooooo tired!!!!!

Big girl is doing good in her bed. She has turned the light off that is right by her bed, it is a soft light but still bright. So I think that is a sign she is getting more comfortable. She still has a small night light on. She didn't cry much at all tonight. She was extremely tired. And can we say attitude....I think I am in the thick of this Terrbile two thing. Today everything was NO and she was throwing herself down, major whining. She even pushed me one time today. Boy was that a no, no!!

The boy is teething. He is cranky and he wants his mommy. My husband had to deal with him this evening and he cried the whole time I was gone (setting up the garage sale). Poor hubcap.... My boy is sweet though. I am getting lots of kisses and hugs. I love the age from about 13 months to right up to 2 years old. I like toddlers too, it's just different. From 13 months to 2, they don't get the whole no thing so they are into everything but they aren't yelling it back at you either and they are sweet as can be. He is getting to be a big boy too. Last night I told him to go tell daddy night, night and he ran right to his daddy and gave him a hug and kiss. He then proceeded ahead of me to his room so he could shut the door and then he went to the rocker to wait for me to sit down so we could read our books. So big!!!!!! He is also mimicking like crazy. Repeats every word we say. Good thing becuase his sister is a talker so he needs to learn in order to keep up with us girls during the day. :)

Wednesday, September 08, 2004

Cool stuff

A woman is like a tea bag. You never know how strong she is until she gets into hot water. ~Eleanor Roosevelt

I like this pic

Monday, September 06, 2004

Night #3 Big Girl Bed

She still doesn't want to go to bed or take a nap for that matter. One good thing with her being scared is she doesn't move out of the bed, even during the day until my husband or I go get her. Once she is tucked in she is not moving. Last night she was yelling but it was becuase she dropped her brush that she had to go to bed with. Hey, anything to get her to sleep in this new bed.

Magazine Whore...

So you should know that I love magazines. Favorites include US, ABC Soaps In Depth, Self, People, Redbook, Better Homes and Gardens, Women's Day... Any other magazine that has an interesting cover for the week or month.

So I was reading my Redbook this afternoon, while I was, well we don't need to know where I was, but that is what most of my magazine reading gets done. :) Anyway, in Redbook one of the stories is "Get Inspired by our Mothers & Shakers...(page 114) amazing women who've given strenth and self-esteem to those facing life's challenges. One to note: Uma Thurman, who-even with her busy career and two little kids - works to help impoverised families raise happy healthy children." First, nothing against Uma or the causes.. My first thought as I read this. PUHLEASE!!!!!!!!!! Yeah, right all the money in the world, housekeeper, cook, nanny, divorced, rich boyfriend...I could be a mother and a shaker too. Of course, I am jaded today. I am having my quarterly fed up moment, where my husband has to prioritize me. I get overwhelmed...which I knew was coming as my last post was my list (or at least the things I could think of before I went to bed last night) I am definitely not a Mother and a Shaker. Some days I barely feel like a Mother. Just have to get control over the overwhelming feelings and how hard it has been to stay at home. It really has been a difficult journey for me. Could have something to do with not practicing safe sex until I was definitely ready for a second child!!!!

Don't get me wrong, I really think people do good and all. Sometimes I just think the media makes women out to be less than nothing unless they have the kids, the career, the philanthropic touch and the house. Again, could be my own jaded glass I am looking through today.

Sunday, September 05, 2004

To Do List

I am a person that functions better when I have lists to work from. So to try to make sense of the chaos that I call life I am going to make a list of things I need to do.

1. Get up at a regular time, instead of letting my 13 month-old wake me up with his screaming.
2. Eat better
3. Organize photos
4. Complete Baby Books
5. Start Wedding album
6. Clean up piles of crap in my room
7. Laundry
8. Dishes
9. Clean up toys
10. Make a list each day of things I need to complete
11. Pay Bills (this really should be higher on the list)
12. Go to the gym and do cardio work (not just attend YOGA classes)
13. Clean up Christmas storage room
14. Hang up pictures
15. Buy picture for front room and hang up
16. Organize lower garage (this really is my husband's job but I will have to remind him :))
17. Have garage sale
18. Clean out upper garage
19. Determine plans for finishing off basement
20. Look up ADOBE information for my dad (he's only been asking me to do this for weeks!)
21. Clean up the dogs (another item that needs to be higher on list, maybe the list is not in importance order, it's just a listing as it comes in my head)
22. Call friends (definitely needs to be done soon)
23. List more items on eBay (MAKE MONEY!!)
24. Clean cars - inside and out
25. Clean car seats - My kids could live for months on the food in them - GROSS!
26. Create a plan for each day for taking care of the kids and for keeping them busy, happy and stimulated (a changeable plan, but a plan none the less)
27. Clean up laundry room
28. Landscaping by air conditioners
29. Plan landscaping for backyard for next Spring
30. Clean windows
31. Take stickers off windows that have been there for over a year!!!!!!!
32. Plan in time for myself each day (Really should have thought of this before number 32!!)
33. Clean out refrigerator
34. DUST!! (I hate to dust)
35. Start Christmas lists (Man is it that time of year again!)
36. Start Christmas shopping
37. Buy Halloween costume for son (will call him the linebacker from now on, will explain in later blog to come, oh the suspense....)
38. See if Halloween costume for daughter (will call her the Princess, no explanation necessary, really) fits from last year
39. Water plants (seeing as how this is #39 on the list it really is no wonder they don't last long around here...)
40. Plan trip for anniversary in October
41. Clean bathrooms (YUCK!!)
42. Hire cook (I wish)
43. Hire housecleaner (I wish more)
44. Go to PAT event
45. Get pillows made for two window seats in the house
46. Buy Hallmark ornaments (Talk to Lisa)
47. Waterseal fence
48. Sweep floors
49. Buy drawer organizers for kitchen and bathroom
50. Buy tarp for outdoor furniture
51. Clean off back porch
52. Copy cds for Dad
53. Reformat brother's computer (again husband will be doing actual work, just have to remember it for him)
54. Setup mom's printer (ditto)
55. Pick football teams with husband so I can prove my superiority in football knowledge and obtain bragging rights for the next year
56. Setup eBay accounting so I can be prepared for tax season
57. Remind husband to setup education savings account for our son
58. Go through crap in basement
59. Put out fall/halloween decor
60. Go through kids clothes that are too small

I think this is all for now. God it's no wonder I can't sleep at night with all this crap wondering around in my head. Maybe I will sleep better tonight. And the hubby is getting up with my youngest tonight so maybe I will be rested in the morning.

Saturday, September 04, 2004

Tears at the heartstrings....

I really don't like her feeling so scared. She is quiet now and I am sure she is asleep but it tears me up to know she is feeling scared and unsure of things. Just scratching the surface of the heartwrenching journey of motherhood, I am sure.

Big girl bed...big girl problems

So if I was thinking I might have held off on the big girl bed thing. Seeing as how she has just recently been afraid of the dark and here we go springing a big girl bed on her. But we had talked about it and she definitely wants to be a big girl. But the idea of the big girl bed was not high on her list of good things tonight. She wanted Mom or Dad to sleep on the floor. And she really wanted to be in bed with Mom or Dad. We did the normal routine and she laid down in bed and cried. So I put on her music and she was quite for a minute and then was screaming Mommy. So I went back up to her room, ready to put her mattress back in her crib and forget the big girl bed for a month or so. But then my husband came in and talked to her about being a big girl and she laid down. She whimpered a little but she has been quite ever since. Keep your fingers crossed. We will see how the night goes. I will be awake at some point with my 13 month old because he is teething so he doesn't sleep well right now. And the last two nights he as been awake at 2:00 AM covered in poop. Bad diaherra.... GROSS!!! The things that nobody tells you (or you really don't care about) when you want to have a child. But one big smile, hug or kiss and you completley forget about the lack of sleep and the extremely groos poop.

Big Girl Bed

What a delimma... My decision was made, we were going to buy a twin bed for my two year old. But then I thought, well maybe I should just buy a full size bed. I think she may like that size better and it really isn't that much more expensive. But then I decided we were just going to get a toddler bed, why? I don't know. I think they really are a waste of money because they don't use them very long but they are only $40 at Wal Mart. So at 4:30 we left to go to WalMart to get a toddler bed. They didn't have one, went to another WalMart, they didn't have one, Ok fine, now I want a toddler bed so I am going to Babies R Us where they are way too expensive. THey have one on clearance but the store doesn't have one in stock. Antoher store, about 30 minutes away does, so we go to that store to get a toddler bed that cost more than $40 that I was against buying in the first place. So my daughter will use it for a year or so and then I can move my son into it. So we should get some use out of it.

Now I have a headache and feel like crap. Probably feel like crap becuase i have been eating like crap!!

Thursday, September 02, 2004

Afraid of the dark

My two year old is now afraid of the dark. But I was prepared. I have a nightlight in her room so that pleased her this evening. I can't believe how verbal she is becoming. I turned out the lights and she said "Ohh, dark" and then went onto say "I scared". I told her that God was looking out for her and that her dad and I were just downstairs. She is getting such an imagination on her (spoonrock) that I knew it was just a matter of time before she started being afraid of the dark.

So I got out of the house by myslef this evening!! Yeah!! I went shopping. I love shopping and have turned it into a way to make money for myslef. I am a genius, at least I think so. I sell my great bargins on eBay. I do ok. I actually haven't looked to see how much money I have made. I only started in January and the thrill right now is finding great bargins and making at least some money to buy a few "extras" here and there.

So I am not too deep and don't really have any witty musings. But I do like quotes. Some of my favorite quotes are from Eleanor Roosevelt. So I will share one with you as I close this entry.

“It is better to light a candle than curse the darkness.” (However, I am much better at cursing)

Wednesday, September 01, 2004

couple of thoughts on blogs...

I have been perusing the blogs getting and idea of what this is all about for people and I have had a couple of thoughts 1) not so sure that I am deep enough for this blog thing. Seems like I might not be funny, witty, intro-spective enough...but that won't stop me.... :) and 2) Flipping off the camera and posting the picture in your blog is not original. But then again who says that you have to be original... I am a bit annoyed this evening so the whole flipping the bird thing is annoying.


What is spoonrock? You will have to ask my 2 year old. This is her new word and when I repeat it, it makes her laugh. I asked her where spoonrock came from and she said, most appropriately, "me". Her imagination is really taking off and it is amazing. I really should revel in it more, rather than be bothered with a dirty kitchen, dirty laundry, toys strewn about, etc...

So I went to my yoga class today. Something else new I am trying. I am really doing anything right now to hold on to my sanity! I joined a gym about 3 months ago, to get myself out of the house and to try to meet new people, as well as get back into shape. I found out that the woman who cuts my hair teaches yoga at the gym I joined. So about a month ago I went for the first time. And it was hard!! But I loved it. So I go 3 times a week. I still need to make time for cardio work but hey, one thing at a time.

Last night, I played around with this blogger thing a little more. Changed my template and added some links. I can't really find a template that reflected me but I am not really sure I could find anything right now that reflects me. I feel I am drifting around not really connected to myself, but maybe that is part of the struggle of being a stay-at-home mom.

Kids are napping so I am going to try to be prodcutive around the house.....